Monday, January 31, 2011

YOU Are Special

I’m a woman who knew better. A woman who turned her back on God years ago by remaining in a physically abusive relationship. I felt as if I’d landed myself smack-dab right in the middle of a Sunday afternoon Lifetime movie. I heard things like, “You don’t matter,” “You were made for me to abuse,” “No one will ever love you like I do.”

Horrific but true.

For so long I believe these lies about myself. I carry them like heavy weights that continually push and jerk my head down in shame. I think, “God, will never take me back after this.”

“Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy;
no shadow of shame will darken their faces.”
~Ps. 34:5

Back then, I'm a frantic girl, unsure of her-self. I need God to wipe my tears, repair my broken heart, and heal bruises make-up won’t cover. I desperately desire to be my Father’s baby-girl again, but how? How can I ever feel worthy to come into His Holy presence? How can my prayers reach His throne room? I feel too dirty to even ask for forgiveness. Satan makes me believe I never can.

But did you know – God never left me? He noticed me even when I felt invisible.

When unspeakable pain gripped me, God gripped harder.

When I had no fight left, He fought for me.

When I felt un-lovable, He showered His love upon me.

God says, “You will always be my baby-girl, no matter what.”

At the time, I thought God probably fell out of love with me. The truth is, I never stopped being my Father’s babygirl… not even for a second! No amount of abuse, depression, or wrong choices could ever make God stop loving me.

I’m sharing this piece of myself because I thought maybe you’re like me. Maybe you too need to be reminded of how special you are to God.

Do you know you’re special? Not because the Bible says so, but because you consistently experience it through a personal relationship with Christ?

"But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people,
that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.”
~1 Peter 2:9 (NKJV, emphasis added)

Please don’t miss this y’all…

The same God that is seated on His throne right now thinks you’re special. The One who breathed life into the universe is pausing just for you. Don’t waste another brain cell thinking you aren’t special. You are! God thinks so-- now it’s time to live like you believe it too!
P.S. My hubby made me feel special last night by giving me flowers for no particular reason!


  1. Beautiful...needed this today :) Thanks for stopping by my blog all the time :)

  2. Okay, eyes are leaking now! Gosh I so remember feeling the same way when I was in an abusive relationship. (Not physical but psycologically and emotionally abusive) I remembered feeling the same way...that my life could be one of the Lifetime movies that are too farfetched to believe. I rememeber feeling as if it was too late for me. I had gone too far down the wrong path. But those are LIES! You know it and I know it! God loves us and He never stops loving us! Beautiful, beautiful post!

  3. I love the idea that you shared our story you know my friend I know that there are many more just like you who thought no one would love you for you. I believe God has a special place for people like you. I have meet some amazing people who have come from so hard core lifestyle and in the midst of all that one thing they all talked about and that was being sold out for Christ. God loves you so much and the beauty of His love is that you don't have to do anything for Him to love you. Because He loves you just the way you are.

    And what your hubby did is great my husband does things like that as well. Your hubby did it because he loves you so much. You have a sweet spirit I love your honesty.

    God bless you this day.

  4. Wow, Kelli. Thank you for opening your heart in this way. I'm so glad you're on this side of all that now. YOU are special, and I thank God for your powerful ministry to so many! God bless you, sweet sister in Christ. Be blessed today just as you're blessing others.

  5. Kelli, thank you so much for sharing your story with all of us. Unfortunately, there are still far too many women (and in some cases, men) who live in those situations and it's vital for them to realize that they're worth so much more. I'm so sorry you had to endure that, but God Bless you for trying to help others know there's a better way. God was indeed by your side the whole time, and obviously still is.

    Have a Blessed Day my Friend!

  6. We all want to feel special and loved. All we have to do is turn to our Father. Thanks for posting this!

  7. Beautiful post, Kelli. God pursues us! Isn't that the strangest thing? We love God, but He loves us even more. He things I'm special. That's just awesome!

  8. Thanks for stopping by my corner...after finding you...and getting blessed by your words i'm truly thankful you came my way! I think we aren't truly living and believing what beautiful wonderful children of God we are until we accept and take it w/ confidence that every single moment no matter where it finds us He is relentlously pursuing us b/c we are that important, special, and significant to Him. Its hard to fathom how a being could love us so much but it's that love that proves it's endurance time and time again!
    {tara} from Undeserving Grace

  9. Thanks for sharing that little peace of your story! What beautiful flowers :-) We are indeed special--He says we are so I choose to believe it (especially when I don't feel it)!

  10. I love how God makes me feel special because it manifests itself in ways that no person could. We are uniquely loved and I think that is why it's so hard for us to grasp at times. Your testimony is just the kind of "special" that proves the depth of His love for us!

  11. So grateful to have a God who makes me feel special and shows me how much I mean to Him as well.

    Thanks for sharing your story... you are blessing so many of us with your honesty and openness.

  12. Thanks for sharing your story, so many of us have been in the same situation. Isn't it amazing how God uses even the most horrific details of our life and turns them around into something good? I've been able to counsel teens and be a listening board for women leaving these situations. Thanks for visiting me at A Season for All Things. ~ Ellen