I pay bills, schedule appointments, spray for ants, start a grocery list, unload the dishwasher, pick up kids, and scrub sticky orange juice that spilled two weeks ago off the refrigerator shelves.I do all these things, yet sometimes I feel invisible.
I wonder if anyone even notices the woman behind the rubber gloves and sponge.
Does anyone realize there is actually a woman underneath this mom-chef-wife-chauffer exterior?
I am squeezed. I am pressed on every side. I want to give up.
I don’t think I am strong enough.
Sometimes, I think God may have picked the wrong woman for this motherhood gig.
I am somewhere in between being noticed and being ignored.
Somewhere between touch overload and not touched enough.
Between self-control and out of control.
Between recognizing Truth and believing a lie.
Somehow I am unseen.
God taps on my heart and reminds me I am not alone.
Even though I am unseen by an earthly audience of many, I am so very noticed by a heavenly audience of One.
I recognize God’s reassuring presence in those inconvenient and uncomfortable “in between places.”
He draws near and whispers,
I will never abandon you in the “in between places”.
I will meet you there.
I will keep you company.
I will acknowledge you.
You are worth noticing.
Suddenly, I don’t feel so alone and invisible in the between places.
We don’t find ourselves in these places by accident.
We are right where God wants us…
In the middle of His love,
Curled up in His grace,
Gripped by His plan, and
Tightly held in between His merciful arms of love.
So sweet sister if you find yourself in a place like this today, remember you are not alone. God sees you serving your family, drag racing to school and back, scrubbing that stain, and obeying His commands…
and He is pleased.
“Am I only a God nearby,”
declares the LORD,
“and not a God far away?
Who can hide in secret places
so that I cannot see them?”
declares the LORD.
“Do not I fill heaven and earth?”
declares the LORD.
~ Jer. 23:23-24
Written for you with love,
A beautiful post - one I'm sure every mom out there can identify with. Thanks for putting it so eloquently.
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Blessings,
Debbie
Thank you Kelli. I left the house a mess last night just to see if my niece and my husband would take it upon themselves to clean. I got home and it was still a mess. When I clean I don't get a thank you. When I leave it a mess they don't even clean it. They know that it will be done later because that is what I do. Why do mom's get treated this way. We have so much to do, a thank you every now and then would be great.
ReplyDeleteI left the mess and went to have my quite time. I heard God come to me and tell me that HE is here. I am not alone. I couple of minutes later Tony came in and kissed me and said I love you, thank you for my two boys, thank you for taking care of this family. I am blessed to have you as my wife and the mother of our children. I will work on not taking advantage of you. So this morning he stayed with our baby (who got sick) while I went to work.
God will be there in the inbetween. He will make sure we are not invisible to our loved ones too.
Our very existence and our desperate need for significance can truly only be found Him! I love this line... "Even though I am unseen by an earthly audience of many, I am so very noticed by a heavenly audience of One." True words to live by. However... you never go un-noticed to me sweet friend! Love the picture too... perfect!
ReplyDeleteWow. This is absolutely beautiful! I think you just put into words how most ladies with young ones feel.
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