I’m wondering, “Am I alone in this fear, the fear of showing my emotions?” For years, I have “sucked it up,” until I was safe behind my bedroom door and then let it out. It does not matter if it is angry tears, tears of joy, or tears of heartache. I close myself off. I am embarrassed, but why?
I am beginning to beat this fear, through a lot of encouragement and prayer. In fact, I am celebrating this evening; I did a huge thing for me.
My elderly neighbor passed away last night. Can I just tell you the lies Satan throws at you when you are a by-stander. Do not go over there. They don’t need you. I am sure they have all the help they need. They’re going to think you’re weird showing up with a coffee cake and coffee. You do not know what to say or how to handle grief.
GO BACK WHERE YA CAME FROM SATAN!!!
I will not hide the love I have for them. I will not be a light hidden under a bushel. I found myself praying for the strength to go do, as I should, when I remembered Jesus weeping with Martha and Mary. He knew Lazarus was going to be fine, but had such compassion that he let it out. I am celebrating for the one that passed but have compassion for the ones left behind.
I stood up, grabbed the coffee cake and coffee, and headed down the street thinking of the love I have for them. I walked in and all fear left me, I wrapped the widow in my arms and told her I was sorry and that we loved her. I let the tears fall and opened myself to the family. They were touched; they were grateful for our prayers and were genuinely happy to see the cake! Lessons today…..Love never fails. Love always conquers! When all else fails bring a cake (my insert).
Satan is a LIAR!
Go on stare fear in the eye, and KISS it! It turns to putty!